Catching up.

It is easier to stay up to date than to catch up, but I haven't been up to it.

The fourth treatment went about as well as the others but there was no way I was choking down a green smoothie. Just the smell made me gag. What I craved and had to have was chocolate pie and prime rib. I indulge in those terribly unhealthy foods. They didn't even taste good because my taste was gone. By the end of that cycle I was able to start drinking the smoothies again, just to start over with another treatment.

This treatment I have been drinking fruit smoothies made with plain yogurt with several pro-biotics in it and all the fruit I froze for my green smoothies. I cut up all the veggies including the kale into a soup which even though my taste buds where screwed up tasted pretty good. After having the soup my taste had pretty much cleared up. So the kale must have been able to do the job even in a soup.

I think the most frustrating thing that has happened is the loss of my eye sight. I have always had better than normal vision. My children and I would have contests when we drove to see who could see the road signs first. I always won by a long way. Eagle eyes, that was me. After the fourth treatment I tried to thread a needle and could not do it. I immediately went to see the eye doctor. I need reading glasses 1.25 magnification on the right eye and 1.50 on the left. He says my vision is normal for distances. I am not sure how they can call that normal. I feel like my whole world is fuzzy. I am hoping that when this is all over some of my vision will return. I am aware that I am wishful thinking but I can dream.

Anyway, I go in for my last chemo treatment in a week. I will be staying with mom afterwards. Then will come the surgery and radiation. We will decide when all that will start and in which order after the MRI which will happen a week after the treatment. I guess I will be staying with mom for a while. Not exactly the way I want to spend the holidays but I am grateful to have my mom, her love and help in invaluable to me.